Before you read this blog I just want to say SORRY for the long entry, sorry to those who are hurt or offended by what I say or what I wrote this is the truth and REAL TALK.....this is what makes me one of the realest doing it, I only say what I FEEL, whats in my heart, what I was thinking at the time....Again thank you to all my wonderful fans I love y'all!!! LETS GET IT!!

Its been over a month since I wrote my last blog, again I have to say sorry to my loyal fans who check it everyday...I know HB was thinking the same thing (you go everyday WINK WINK!!) but I really haven't been in good spirits with myself and other things going on in my life so I didn't want to write a blog in that type of mood...I hate using excuses but its the truth! For those who have been there for me from day one understand what I'm talking about though, because when I write a blog, I'm going to give you my life, what I have in my heart, my body, my soul because THATS ME, I believe I owe it to my fans to always give you the REAL ME, the truth, whats going on in my life. To be honest I couldn't tell you how many people actually read my blog, but I know I have some of the best fans in the world who love me, follow me, support me and always want to know whats going on with me so from the bottom of my heart thank you and I promise no matter what I will continue to write and allow you to get into my life because I'm so appreciative and grateful for every fan, friend, family member I have in my life that love me. 

Now.....Let's get to what's on my mind! Its been a hard summer for me for many reasons, I have to say the roughest summer I have had in a long time. This past season I played in Italy, it was a great year for me because I was able to play a lot of minutes, work on my game, be a key player on the team in a good league. If I didn't play well, the team didn't play well so everyday, every night I had to be ready and come out and perform. I missed that feeling so it was a good experience for me and I took full advantage of the situation. I made 2nd team ALL-LEAGUE which is an honor even though I personally think I should have been on the first team, I made ALL-EXPORT team, lead the league in assist, top 10 scorer and my team missed the playoffs by 5 points. It was overall a great year for me and the  AIR AVELLINO organization. So after the last game of the season we loss on the road which knocked us out of the playoffs, season was over. Now lets get to the interesting part because this is something that bothered me all year but I was falling more and more in love with the game of basketball again, I just love being on the court and playing at a high level. I was basically playing for FREE, the club I guess was having money problems which I understand happens, much respect to AIR AVELLINO organization, the FANS were GREAT to me and my family, but at the end of the day this is a business, I'm a businessman I'm a professional I get for my services now. The last 6 months of the season my checks were months late and then with 4 games remaining when the race to the playoffs begun they just stop coming to my account. No one ever came to me like, "dee you running behind, everything is going to be okay, you will get your money, NONE of this happened. I guess its my fault I didn't complain, or say anything but I SIGNED A CONTRACT so I thought that spoke louder than words. But I never complained, I never sat out (which I usually do), I just kept playing and going hard. Everyday, every time I hit that floor I played hard, give it my all because thats all I know Im playing for the name of the front not the name on the back. So when season was over I packed all my things I had 6 bags in total, I took a flight to Israel to see HB, thinking okay they will wire my money, my bags would be shipped to my home, this was a great year, I had a great time in ITALY. But when I arrived back to the states, only 3 bags came, my money wasn't wired, so I was okay I will give them some more time before I just lose it.

Now this is where it gets interested, matter of fact, OUTRAGEOUS!! My bags were too heavy to be shipped so they returned my bags to the gym where they sat for weeks, the team told my agent they paid me all my money, that I need to check my account because it was there, I'm like no its not. Then I told my agent how much they owe me and their response was NO WAY WE OWE THAT MUCH!! Now....IM MAD because I have always dreamed to play for a living so I know when I GET PAID, what bonuses I have, the dates I GET PAID etc. I also know when I'm trying to be made a FOOL!! But in my mind I'm like why are they doing this to me? Was I not the best player on the team? Did I not have a great year? What did I do? At the end of the day none of those questions matter anyway because I signed a contract, I worked hard, but Im the only guy not to be paid!! Once they realize I wasn't a fool, they say OH okay we didn't wire the money we don't know what happened. One week later, they say okay we have to see how much it comes out to because I was involved in a CAR ACCIDENT which the car was insured plus I wasn't drive when it happened but still I do agree it was my car so OKAY take out what it cost to be fixed. Then they say okay we also have to take out for the LEGAL FEES, the case is still going on out here in ITALY, the case of me HITTING THE POLICE, which again GOD IS MY WITNESS i would never even thinking about doing that but it happened, I learned and now moved on. So here we are it when from WE PAID HIM, check his account, to we don't owe him that much, to we don't know what happened we thought we sent it, to we have to take money away due to car repair and legal fees, to its JULY I still haven't received anything from the team. Now I'm a real dude, I'm a very happy and very nice dude so I can't lie if I would have got a message, call, text from them like DEE we are going to pay you, we are sorry for this situation, or something I would have been fine but since I got none of that, I'm so HOT, so MAD, disappointed at this situation Im sorry I couldn't hold back anymore because if you go back to this past season I GIVE MY HEART TO THAT CITY, I WORKED HARD EVERYDAY, I WON GAMES FOR THEM, and this is what I get in return this is how y'all treat me. The President CALLED me this son, this is how y'all treat me. I just couldn't hold this back anymore I don't care what no one thinks about this BLOG ENTRY, I don't care what they have to say about me, BECAUSE I know who I am as a person, basketball player and what I give to that organization.

Now here we are today, me sitting here in my nice VEGAS five star room trying to make an NBA roster writing this blog talking about all whats going on with that situation, do you really think I want to be doing this???NO NO NO. I'm so focused though, when I got back home and started back playing all my people saw the growth in my game, I thank AVELLINO, the ITALIAN LEAGUE for making me a better player this season, I THANK YOU WITH ALL MY HEART...I got better and I promise I will continue to get better because I love this game too much..I just got married to it ain't no turning back now. This is a big summer for me, when I got home people was like you are in a great situation, we are building your resume, you had a great year over here you should be fine...I'm like yeah right its WORK TIME, its a long grind I'm in a better situation than most, but still ain't nothing guaranteed in this business. I'm just growing as a professional, I'm learning the business, my love for the game is steady on the incline. Through all what I been talking about I'm still positive, I'm still smiling because I have a beautiful mother, two beautiful sons, family, friends, fans who really LOVE ME, so thats a blessing all together and to top it all off GOD IS SO GREAT!! I'm living, I'm breathing, I can see, I can walk, PEOPLE OUT THERE we can not take the little things for grant it I NEVER HAVE, I NEVER WILL....Everyone goes through their ups and downs, only the strong survive. Now it may have seemed like I bad mouth AVELLINO trust me I didn't, I couldn't they done so much for me, I'm just telling the truth and what's going on. They may not like it, but me and family don't like what they have done to me in this process. Just 4 days ago I got my bags, I left MAY 17th...I haven't received a check since APRIL..I haven't got a text, a call, email, message anything from them, so if I'm wrong I will man up and SAY IM SORRY but what did I DO??? I thought y'all loved me? LOL yeah I know I sound real soft right now but when the season was going on and we needed a win or a big game from me these are the words they used, this is what I felt when I came to the gym, went to dinner, now its OVER its DEE WHO?? WHAT MONEY? Its just not right!

I told myself I wouldn't talk about the family problems but I have to because I know my mom will read this, I don't think my dad will but I will definitely let him know what I said and how I feel. My grand dad RIP BIG FRED, wife died first, RIP VERA, it was a tough time for my grand dad because he loved his wife so so much....I was able to attend the funeral my first ever..But late in the season my grand dad passed away and that hit me hard because BIG HOMIE loved me and my mom he took care of us in a way no one has ever. I wasn't able to make it to the funeral, but MAN it hit me hard because I loved my grand dad, but when I was in town I never drove out to spend time with him because I just have so much to do when I come home, again no excuses but you don't really think about stuff until something sad happens. So late in the season my mom calls and say she has to put my grandma, her mother,in a nursing home she was really sick. So as soon as I got home I went to see her and she wasn't doing well. Zemae, my grandma, has done so much for me I can write a book on some of the things I learned from her and the things she taught me while spending weekends at her home on the south side of CHICAGO. I just couldn't see her like that, but everyday my wonderful mother went up there day after day, until recently she passed away. It hit me hard, but it didn't because when I talked to my mom she said DEE she went in peace!! She was really sick and I know deep down she is in a better place because she is the MAIN REASON I have faith in the LORD. She was a very powerful lady, very smart, and I know she is watching over us right now ZEMAE I love you so much Rest in Peace and I promise your little grand son DANIEL will continue to do what I do, represent our family name in a respective way.

But on another note I want to thank my family, friends, fans, my city CHICAGO, for welcoming me home and allowing me to still enjoy being around the people and place that loves me. To my mother you are a BEAST, she went hard on the 4th, by cooking this amazing meal for the family, my community set it out for the kids by throwing a wonderful block party, and everyone enjoyed themselves including me. I'm a strong dude, I have been through a lot, I have seen a lot, what makes me continue to smile and enjoy life I know everyone goes through stuff in life, things could be a lot worse, LIFE IS GOOD because I WOKE UP THIS MORNING, I'm getting an opportunity to make it back to the NBA, its something about thinking positive which makes me get this boast of energy. Good things happen to good people I really believe that and I promise I WILL grow from every experience whether good or bad. I'm not perfect, I'm not an angel but I tell you one thing I am thats a ROLE MODEL and LEADER to my kids, your kids, and kids around the world. So this BLOG was from the heart,  it was on my heart I have a lot more to say but I'm not going to write y'all a book today...But I'm back on top of my business and I want my fans to know whats going on with me because again I told I have some of the best fans in the world y'all keep me going for real......Im here in VEGAS with the TORONTO RAPTORS (I thank them for the opportunity its a blessing) we are 4-0 I'm getting minutes, I'm meeting new people, I'm blessed I can never complain and I wouldn't!! I just want to do what I love, take care of family, and be DEE BROWN. THANK YOU.....THANK YOU so much for taking time out of your busy schedule to read my blog and thanks for the support and love. For those who follow me on twitter, facebook, thank you everything is moving along with me, Im still working, Im still DEE BROWN, that means I WILL close this blog entry with a big hug and SMILE!! GOD BLESS!! yo boy DUNNY

PS HB don't cry anymore....YOU ARE AMAZING and I really do LOVE YOU!!! its yo boy DB

Quote of the day: "LEAD, FOLLOW or GET OUT THE WAY...winning comes second to only breathing" "RIP "the boss"

DEE BROWN "ILLINI PRINCE"

ONE MAN FASTBREAK